Paranoid much?

So, recently the little woman asked me if I would mind if she could get back into one of the things she was into before we met, but gave it up for financial reasons and the fact that I didn't care for it too much. Knowing how happy it would make her, I said she could get back into the BDSM stuff, as long as things didn't go too far.

Since then, one of her friends has been, in her words "up her ass", not to mention the nights she has spent on-line talking to prospective play partners.

All this doesn't bother me, per se, but I do find myself looking over her shoulder when she's IMing or e-mailing. That's not to mention the thoughts I've had of logging on to her Gmail or myspace accounts to read her stuff (she has passwords automatically saved on the comp, so it wouldn't be that hard to do).

This doesn't make me feel the best, let me tell you. Am I having second thoughts about this decision? Could it be paranoia? Insecurity? A mixture of all the above? I'm not sure.

what I do know is that my past relationships have ended over infidelity, so I may just be a little wary of another one ending that way.